Losing friends can be one of the toughest experiences of teenhood. Cause its litterally like no one knows what your feeling or going through.
If your a christian, i know that God has got me through some of the roughest times in my life. Just talk to him. Tell him what your going through, tell him what your feeling. He knows whats best for you and he'll make sure everything works out in the longrun.
I know when tragic things happen to me, i have trouble with blaming other people or blaming myself. Ive learned not to blame yourself for things you couldnt have fixed anyway...it just makes the situation harder.
Its okay to be sad. Its okay to be mad. I dont mean to sound like Dr. Seuss there..but really, trust me when i say i know that sometimes you have to just let your frustrations out. Get a notebook...write out your feelings. Hit the wall. Yea...it helps.
Really, what you have to adjust to is your friends not being there. Its going to be way different, and the "adjusting" part wont be that easy.
Go visit your friend in the hospital. Take him/her flowers...bring them a card. Even if they never get a chance to read it...it may make you feel better that youve done this for them. Talk to them...tell them "remember when" stories, and tell them what a great friend they were, and tell them to be strong..even if there asleep and cant hear you. It will help to get those words out.
Go to your other friends funeral...visit there grave. Take them flowers.
Most importantly dont forget your friends.
Remember, every thing happens for a reason and some things fall apart so that other things can fall together...
I hope this helped. Ill pray for you!

