You have already been going behind your husbands back from the frist time you started having any contact with your ex. He was your frist love relax it is ok we all have felt that way. You have a marriage and four children you need to put your ex in the past and keep him there. You can never go back into time. You have a family I don't know what you think you have to gain by keeping in contact with him. your just asking for trouble and how would you feel if the table's were turned. Do you think your ex would want to raise a family after your're been married to him and have children with another man. You have done nothing seriously wrong at this point don't let it go any futher it might cost you your family.


