I have pain in upper abdomin, left and right, what could it be?

Do you have any other symptoms ie.. bloody stool? Where exactly is your pain, ie..under the ribs?

I have to ask, why are you afraid to go to the hospital? No health insurance?

Drug abuse I am guessing.

Yes...drug abuse...I am not proud of it by any means...I love my child and I want to stop...I know I can. I do not have health insurance. When I dont take the pills the pain subsides after a few days. As with other addictions, when the pain goes away I forget about it, so when the oppertunity arises I take the pills again! I know I shouldnt and I dont want to but my mind gets into its own little argument and says " oh come on just this weekend is ok, then I will stop after that...." this has been going on strongly for two months. And I am so frustrated at myself. I never did drugs or alcohol in my teen years so I dont understand the weakness I have faced to come to this point in my life......

Two good things you have going for you. You know you should stop, and you want to it's just your addiction calling you back.

Your fear with going to the hospital is fear derived from the fact that a. you will have to face your problems, b. You don't want to get your kid taken away, and c. you are afraid you have done irreparable damange to your body.

It's time to face your fears head on. If the pain stops after you stop taking the pills chances are its the pills making you sick and if you'd stop taking them you'd be okay. Pain medication addiction is fairly common and you shouldn't feel too ashamed to get help because it could happen to anyone.

A support group would do you some good. Jodi listed several great ones and the yahoo groups are wonderful supportive and online. I would also ask for someone you trust to help support you through this difficult time. You don't have to do this alone.

Maybe getting a physical will help assure you that you are in good health. No one is going to send you to jail if you admit you have a problem a lot of your fears will go away once you address this problem.

I totaly agree with Jodi and Skoo, and koodos to you for seeking help!! We will all be pulling for you. But please please go to the doctor, he/she will keep this confidential, and there are medical ways to help you, but most of all your health needs looked after. My brother died 3 years ago from acute liver and kidney failur from his abuse of pain killers, so please please seek professional help.