Psychologist- am i having repressed memories?

I am a 38 year old mother, full time worker, wife. I am on antidepressants and Klonopin for major depression and Panic Disorder and PTSD. These meds have been effective, but this past week I have experienced chronic/ constant anxiety and some out-of-body feelings along with intense anger and suicidal wishes. The problem is I dont know where this came from or why it is happening. My mother was Borderline Personality Disorder and Bipolar (undiagnosed and untreated) so my childhood was abusive and unstable. she was obsessed with perceived threats of violence and sexual abuse on her and us. she would tell us stories about the dangers of being victims, an then threaten to put us into those situations if we were "bad". I have felt this week as if I dont want to know that I was molested, but I wonder if the fact that she made us so frightened about it is making me feel or question if I was. I know that she went through a phase where she gave us routine enemas to keep us healthy. She would taunt us with being able to play with special toys that she kept away from us only to be used if we agreed to let her do it. I never though that i had them, only remembering my bothers being "tortured" but recently remembered a flashback of myself and how i felt. I have almost no memories about my childhood, and the little I have feel like they dont belong to me. Am I repressing? Am I just stressed? i am wondering why I feel so crazy and anxious while on my meds.