First off calm down, your reaction is normal.
second let me level with you. Death is never easy whether you really know the person or not. Life is delicate and its okay to be sad and feel,
Third It's okay to question mortality and to get upset over it. there is no wrong way to act. and just because you didn't know them personally doesn't me that you aren't affected, or you can't reach out to others who are hurt.
My best friend died when we was ten, and at that time I didn't understand what I was feeling. It took me years to understand,
You have the ability to help those in need, and to be empathetic. Its a hard time for everyone one, including you, but maybe going to the funeral and helping others will get you though this tough time.







