If the man you are with is very controlling and doesn't accept you for what you are, then it's time to start planning to move on. A loving relationship is one in which the mate offers support and encouragement.
I don't know what he says to you but you need to figure out if his words are legitimate constructive criticism, where he is really trying to help or if they are belittling, demeaning comments to make you feel bad. These are two different things.
If you find that he is truly unkind to you and that you are not happy, then do your research and planning so that you can move on. You could look into low income housing and other assistance for those trying to get on their feet (food stamps, etc.) Or perhaps you have a friend or colleague who could share the rent in a small 2 bdrm apt.
Good luck to you






